If I Were Me is the culmination of Clark Blaise's career as a geographer of the human heart. In the character of Gerald Lander he has created a modern Faust who carries the world within him, but must travel to learn its meaning. At the age of fifty, Gerald Lander is granted a vision. He reads his future, resolves his past and for ten luminous years applies himself to the mysteries of language, Alzheimer's and consciousness itself.